The Door To My Life….

The Door To My Life….

Its right there, can’t you see it.  It’s right in front of you, waiting for you to grab the handle, open and walk through.

 

So many times over the years I’ve wondered when it was going to be my time!?  When do I get to go after what I want for my life?  Who is going to help me reach my dreams and create the life I want?  Well, after many years of searching and waiting…no one came.  No one showed up to help, no one seemed to be interested enough to help me find my path.  How sad….

But, after months of journaling, looking at my life and trying to figure out where I went wrong, I finally figured it out.  The door had always been there, I just wanted someone else to open it for me.  My fears overshadowed the door, making it scary to move towards it and see what was inside.  But now I know…it’s ME, I’m the one who has to do it for myself and most likely, no one else will ever care enough, or have enough time to do it for me.

So I am taking my life into my own hands! It’s about time.  I want no regrets when its time for me to depart this world and the I have decided, Life’s Too Short to wait anymore!  So here I go….

It’s been maybe a week since I’ve posted.  Lots of doubts and why waste my time when no one’s reading my posts.  But as I am learning to do over the past weeks, I am doubting my doubts!  I enjoy putting my thoughts onto page, I enjoy plumbing the depths of myself and seeing what surfaces, so I will practice and getting putting one blogging foot in front of the other and I will make progress.

I must admit, last week, I took mostly the whole week off from blogging or reading about blogging or thinking about blogging.  Partly because I was sick and partly because I was totally overwhelmed by all the information I was trying to absorb. I actually felt at one point that I truly just wasn’t interested in long-term online stuff, I think I had burned myself out in one overloaded week on the internet!  But then, after taking that time off, I began to feel drawn back again.  So have been picking away at it some more this week.  I am trying to pace myself better and learning to take a break every hour and a half or so and doing something physical. That really helps!

One thing that I discovered, actually today while I was reading an e-book from wakeupcloud.com.  I discovered that it is my destiny to create the life that I want!  I know that probably sounds cheesy, but it really hit home for me and began to resonate in my mind.  I have always wanted a destiny, but thought that was for the famous movers and shakers throughout history.

This is a definition that I like for destiny:

The power that predetermine events.

Short and sweet, but truly, I am the power that can predetermine the events in my life.  Not that I can set everything in stone and make it all turn out perfect.  But I am the only one that holds the power to create the life I want!

I can’t create a universe, but I can, with my choices and actions, begin to create the kind of life I want to be living everyday for myself. You can do it too.

It begins with a little step and a small glimmer of hope.

I try to get up every morning and find a blog post that is encouraging and motivates me to take another action towards self improvement and financial freedom.  That’s what I want…to be the best I can be, to help others be the best they can be and to be financially free to do both whenever, wherever and however I choose!

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